Unlike most of my previous posts, this one is more of a deep and insightful (I guess) one.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately, having had an insane amount of time to kill whilst travelling and it makes me feel old for some reason. I’ve just realised how old I am…how old I’m going to be on my next birthday which makes me sound like some spoiled brat not wanting to grow up. I’m all for growing up, I know I can’t be a kid forever (as hard as I might try) because I’ll have to get a job, buy a house, get married, have kids and so on. Every Boxing Day (save for last year) when my family goes to visit my best friend’s, our dads always act like children. And her mum is very, very competitive. So much so that sometimes we feel like the adults and our parents are the kids. So do we ever have to ‘grow up’?
Another thought was about jobs, as grown up as that sounds. I’m at university at the moment and most of my friends are worrying about what to do after we graduate. Some have internships because they want to go into something specific like banking or consulting, or just want a shot at getting the job at the end of it. Others are set on teaching and some, like me, just aren’t really sure yet. I’d like an internship, it would be nice to get a feel of the working world and if it’s really for me. And if I get a job on the back of that, why would I complain? Then I get told that we’re too young to start thinking about our careers…but then a lecturer will say to start thinking now (sometimes, they go ‘start thinking from now’) which is confusing and fine for them as they already have a pretty safe job. Who would fire a lecturer? I mean, if they haven’t retired it’d be hard to fire them as they’ve been there for so long, and we would all miss their musings about the good old days. I guess this was brought on because I have an assessment centre tomorrow and *fingers crossed* I’ll do well and have a chance at something when I graduate. It doesn’t stop me being nervous, even though I’ve been told it’s ‘strength-based interviews only’ and it’s a fast-track so I have a first shot at this compared to other people who have to wait until applications officially open. I don’t think I’ve been this worried about interviews since applying to University…
Ah, University. Four years of my life studying a subject I love with a random language module here and there. Sometimes I wonder if I should have chosen to study a joint honours course with a language because then I could be so much better at the language and could go abroad for a year. To somewhere cool like Japan…that would be awesome. I’m taking a Japanese module at the moment and am very envious of my friend who’s going to Japan next year! But then I’m also glad I do a single honours course as I get to study it in much more depth, and have a slightly more stable group of friends instead of having a set in each faculty but not knowing them as well as I’d like to. My current friends are great. We have great banter and it being a male-dominated course, lots of guys in our group. Last year we noted that we should find more girls to join our group, but as there aren’t that many and they all stick together, it hasn’t happened.
Yeah, this was quite random and somewhat very deep for me. My friends would not recognise this as me